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Lately I've been feeling the strangest urge to RP again. It's probably because I've been so ridiculously writer's blocked. I don't know. I don't know how much time I have to write in a super-active game again, but I find the urge to want to write with people. I have no plot idea, I have no character idea. I only know I want to be able to go slow and I want it to be real world, not something like HP. Beyond that I'm lost.

Anyone interested or have any ideas where to point me?

(Cross-posted from Facebook.)


2010 was by far my most life-changing year ever. I went from being a single sloth sitting in front of my computer to engaged and living in the most amazing state ever (despite its attempts the last two days to kill me with snowy roads). I've got a job that will hopefully lead to an awesome career, I'm thirty pounds lighter than I was in August and still dropping slowly, and I'm getting ready to spend the rest of my life with the most amazing man in the world. He changed my life and I never want anything but him and this path I've entered onto.

It's had its downs, too, obviously. Money is not anywhere near as easy to come by as I could really stand it to be. I lost an amazing friend and we're both to blame. I watched an amazing person lose her little boy and how can you help but feel powerless at a time like that? And while I gained so much by coming here, I had to leave my family and my puppies behind to do so and I miss them everyday. I'm sure my mom is at least a little exasperated sometimes when I show up on her Caller ID for the fourth time that week.

But I wouldn't change it for anything. This journey has been amazing. This time last year, the song "What A Year For A New Year" was my theme song. I couldn't wait because 2009 just needed to be over with. However, I'm saying "Bring on the new year!" for a whole new reason this December 31st. I love my life and I can't wait for this new year to keep it going.

Come on, 2011, and good-bye, 2010! It's been nice knowing you!

Heads up, you guys. My email has been hacked (sort of. either way, it's sending bogus, virus-filled emails) so I've had to retire the email I've used since I was eleven (the_chatterpillar@hotmail.com) and I've gotten a new one (andsunshine@hotmail.com). This makes me very sad. However, it was necessary. I will still check the_chatterpillar for some time, but will not be writing from it. If you get anything from that address, promptly delete it.

The spam/virus/thing killed my contacts. If you'd like, totally email me your email address (I needed to update my contacts before anyway...) or send it as a message on Facebook if you have me added on Facebook.

I started a blog! It is ridiculous and I will probably not keep up with it. We shall see. http://heroinandsunshine.blogspot.com/

Hey! Hey! Guys!




I'm engaged. :D

( blurry pictures cause Chris' phone doesn't like the lighting in our apartment and would also much rather focus on my skin or the blanket than the ring )

I know a lot of you saw this on Twitter or Facebook, but I also don't have some of you on either of those and I hadn't put it on here yet.


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So I got an email from NaNoWriMo today and mentioned it to Chris all *sigh* "I'm going to get a lot of these for the next few months." I knew, of course, that I could disable them, but that meant logging in and I'd forgotten my password and yeah. But then Chris says to me, "Well are you going to do it?" knowing what it is from my past explanations. I said I'm thinking about it, but... and he told me, "You should do it!" And then continued to urge until I agreed. I began talking about write-ins and meet-ups and he liked the idea of this cause he wants me to go make some friends, not my greatest skill, and so I recovered my password and he helped direct me to the best and closest region to Longmont, which is just Boulder. And on their forums they had an introduce thyself post and there's a ton of people in Longmont. So I'm kind of excited.

The fact that Chris is urging me toward this and telling me I should do it and being all supportive means so much to me. Senclair pretending to be supportive, but it never seemed as genuine. Chris doesn't pretend to be all intellectual or bookish, but I know he means it when he tells me to try. And so I love this man. (That's not the only reason, I swear. He has many fine qualities. But he's making me mushy.)

PS: He just bit my toe. Wtf?

I am craving the weirdest things right now. AND NO I AM NOT PREGNANT. But I really, really want nachos, chocolate cake, and pizza from Pizza Hut (with stuffed crust omg yummmmm). And cantaloupe. Or really any fruit. Like grapes.

And apparently they have fruit in the fridge here cause Chris asked. (We're at his dad's.) And then his dad suggested pizza for dinner. :D

That's my story!

Day 6: Your biggest pet peeve.

So I'm assuming we mean in the RP world, not in general? Okay, so my biggest pet peeve is the "what thing can I do to keep the entire focus on my one character the whole time?" that some people like to pull. There's a difference between playing your line to the fullest and being a drama-tastic attention-whore. What I think makes the difference is the skill with which a player can write and the care they use with the lines. There are some people I've noticed, however, that tend to be "My character isn't being talked about? Oh, let's get them injured! And then they reveal they're pregnant! So now they have to get married! OOO! I GET TO PLAN A WEDDING!!!" And whenever they start to get bored with a character it becomes "now what can I do to them?" Not "with" them. "To" them. And everyone's guilty of some of this to an extent. If a muse is fading, you want to make them exciting again. But I think everyone knows exactly what I'm talking about.

Day 5: Your favorite crackship.

I'm... not really sure? I've never explored crackships. I've played plenty of lines that were filled with absolute crack, but even when I played one time-travel HP game, I haven't done anything cracky with it because I wasn't there long. I did explore briefly an interesting thing with 97!Snape and 80!Lily, playing Lily, but it was never an actual ship and would not have developed into one. Devin and Barnabus were supposed to be crack since she was supposed to end up with Benjy. So I don't know. This is one day I kind of want to just skip. But yeah. I tried? Lol.

I'm putting Days 3 and 4 in together because I just never got a chance yesterday to post 3.


Day 3: Your favorite female PB.

So I know painperdu was waiting for this one with baited breath, but I've actually changed my mind on who I was going to choose. SO NOW YOU'LL NEVER KNOW, CHRISTA. Actually, I had been about to choose Ashley Greene, largely because of my use of her as Victoria Dolohov. However, I then realized there's another PB I like as my true favorite. Ever since my very first journal game, I have adored Rachael Leigh Cook - only long haired, though. I loved the wavy hair she had in... I don't know what films. But I loved it. I liked her hair on Psych, too, though, when it was longer. That short bit she had was strange.

But I'm rambling. She's not in my current or retired characters because I'm sort of breaking the rules I established for Day 2. I have played her, for about a week. And I've made two other attempts. I have since dubbed her my unlucky PB, or my cursed PB. The first time I apped her, I ended up not submitting her. I didn't join that game until months later, with someone else entirely. The second time, I was co-creating a game. We had most of it done, enough so that I began to create my first character. That game never got off the ground. And then last December I tried a third time to use her. I finished her application. I even began a log. A week later, I was out of the game and had lost my best friend.

So I have not tried since. Maybe some day she'll get used and the curse will be broken. But until then, she remains my elusively favorite, unusable PB.


Day 4: Your favorite ship.

I am going to cheat. I did a picspam not too long ago with this very question, only then it was top five ships. I'm going to just steal what I'd written there:

Jules Brielle Stanek and Callum Harwood: We didn't get to play out all of their crack in-game, yet what we continued as a PSL and later as their reincarnations in a non-HP game (OUAD) is and probably will always be my favorite ship I've ever played, HP or not. LOSLI was media-centric with the introduction of the wizard's television. Jules was a model who wanted to be an actress, Cal was her Scottish-American ex in a rockband. They were sex that turned into love, but when he proposed she got scared and took off. This was his second big heartbreak but he wasn't going to let her go quite so easily. Every month he wrote her a letter with snippets of poetry or lyrics, rarely his own, just to remind her that he loved her. Nevertheless, he moved on and began dating Andrea.

Then they met up again when she moved back to Britain, which she and her family had fled during the war, to co-star on one of the brand new TV shows. He moved there around the same time, a total fluke, because he discovered his ex, the first heartbreak, had had his son Elliott and he wanted a part in raising him. This led to Jules and Cal's eventual run-in. Anyone who's ever known me or Steph knows the drama we love and these two had drama. A drunken night together leading to the conception of their child didn't help things. It was around this time that LOSLI ended.

Eventually, as we played them out, they had their daughter Laurel, Elliott ended up living with them, they got married, and things got as normal as they could for celebrities. We played more of their future lives in the RL-verse than in an HP-verse, but they were still epic love. Even though the PSL/ship is over, I will always cherish them.

So I've quit games again. Most of you knew that because most of you were in the only game I played. As of yet, I still need to update my characters list, but that's not the point right now. The point is, this probably won't be permanent. I know myself too well. However, it will be a while and while this is a wonderful opportunity for me to focus on my original novel, I don't want to lose touch with all of you. I will keep my CDJ active. I'm doing the 30 Day Meme and you all know how I like to TL;DR about my RL adventures. However, I also wanted to point out the links in my sidebar. Beneath the one to my icons, there are two links to my Facebook and Twitter. Add me! If you add me on Facebook, you may want to remind me who you are in the Send a Message thing lol, and on Twitter you'll need to let me know you've followed me if you want me to follow you back. But I definitely want to stay in touch!

Day 2: Your favorite male PB.

I'm going to narrow it down just to people I've used, not people I would like to use (a much shorter list with the males than the females) or people I've played opposite. This narrows it significantly, especially by taking out people I've played against since I usually play women.

So, doing that I'm torn a little between two people, both because of the characters they were portraying. Tim Rozón and James McAvoy. After some mild head-debate, I'm going to have to go with Tim, but it's really close. This decision is due a large part to my liking Tim's icons better. To be fair, I made his icons, but I find he has a lot more expressions, like in this, this, and this one. Before sharing them with people, I need to remake them because I did them first with a 2px border and saved them as jpgs, but I just love his face. I do find, however, that I end up loving a character because I love the show/movie they're in and/or the person they portray in a show/movie, and I absolutely adored Instant Star and Tommy. So maybe that's a part of it. But I loved using him as a PB and if I ever get back into games, I may just have to use him again.

Dear lena,

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your sister. I think I realized it when your dwarf bit me at the mental hospital and I saw you sit on Manchester United's goalkeeper. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep the results of your blood sample as a memory. You should also know that I told my psychiatrist about your eggplant-fetishism.

Go and drown yourself,
-andsunshine-




( chain letter template! )

I hadn't done this in a long time and all the images were broken in the last one, so I felt like doing it again.

( the cdj icon meme )

So I'm kind of beyond tired of our neighbors across the hall fighting and screaming (re: literally screeching like they're being stabbed) at each other. Being woken up by that or having to stop a movie because of it and then the doors being slammed so hard it shakes our floor? Not fucking pleasant. They only paid, like, 16 dollars of their 600+ rent last month, too, according to a notice taped to their door earlier this week, and I'm kind of secretly hoping they'll just get evicted already because hearing them break up over and over is getting very old. Just saying.

Day 1: Your favorite genre (type of site).

Judging from how many I play, one would probably assume my favorite is Harry Potter. In a way, it is. I love the world, the magic and its intricacies, I love the purism and the way she set that particular conflict up, and I love that she's invented pretty much every detail about her world and gave it to us in a purely straightforward way, no beating around the literary bush. It makes it such a rich world to play in and gives us so much to work with when coming up with games.

However, if I had a choice, that would not be my favorite. I actually love original games, mostly fantasy oriented to a degree. My favorite to play with are mutants. I just haven't seen a good one in so long. I would love, if life ever settles into a nice pattern, to start one up again or at least track one down. The problem just always seems to be finding one with enough people, an original enough premise, and dedicated mods and players to keep things going. So I play HP. Luckily, I do love HP.



PS: Pretend I didn't start this a day late. Shhhhhhh!